Holy Crap! Didn't expect THIS!

[Trixi]

CTH-yeah, actually I read that book and then (for whatever reason) loaned it to him. Oh how I cried as I read it!

Last night H came over, but then after being here for an hour, had to spend the next 4 hours dealing with a work issue. (BOOO!)

For a brief moment he told them he had to step away from the phone. We wolfed down the (now) overdone dinner. And very briefly talked about how we are both very scared. The good- he said that this time he was actually trying. The bad-because if he tried and it didn't work, he would know he tried.
WTF?

I just said "well, given that you couldn't "get away" from me while lacking a commitment, I am confident that with a commitment we will be fine. It's going to be tough and we have some serious challenges ahead of us, but we can do it."

Found out that for sure my/our daughter is doing super hardcore drugs. Unfortunately, the last "lead" that confirmed what she was using hasn't seen her for a few weeks and didn't know where she went but had heard she was "up and down" the worst street in town.The worst part is that since she has cut ALL of us out of her life (friends and family) even if I can find her, I don't know what leverage to use. We already don't see her, don't give her money, etc. So, if she refuses rehab, what would be any different for her? Nothing.

AND-MS specialist finally talked to my stepson. She said she is very worried because the MS is progressing very quickly and she kind of wants to just skip to the strongest drug- but it could kill him. So, we are all going to meet with her at beginning of April to discuss options.

Still weighing heavy is H's impending job loss. He is starting to freak out.

My fear: I'm afraid that once all the crisises(sp?) pass, he will leave again when he doesn't "need" me.

I don't even know how to get over that; especially since he is still in "babystep mode" and hasn't said he is in it forever.