First meeting w/ WAW, I'm shaky need encouragement

[SweetCyborg]

Aaargh, this is so confusing. I am following the steps and WILL move on with my life (and probably back to NYC), but, I think that first chapter is SO good, and wish I could share w/ my in-laws, WAS, etc., but I know that's not part of the 'program'

Towards GAL, I went to a meditation class tonight, not really my thing, but it helped w/ the anxiety and obsessive thinking. I looked up more jobs in NYC without making a final plan. Tonight I made myself a nice dinner (pierogie w/ grilled onions), and I am learning to value myself in or out of a marriage.

I feel like I was always waiting for her to change, but that I too needed to change (I thought I was pretty good, but now doing things I should've been doing more of for ME!)