Been two years for me too. Two years this week in fact. I would have been married 15 years this week as well. Two important dates in the same week.
It sucks.
My Ex also tries hard to be nice. Like she never did anything to hurt me or my kids. Hard to understand, I know.
You are not alone but that is of little comfort.
I would suggest that you start to let go. No more hugs and such. Limit the emails as much as you can. You continue to be her "safety net". She knows you are there "just in case" her new life falls short plus you ease her guilt about breaking up the family. I would go dark - at least it will not hurt as much or give you false hope. And it may cause her to think ....
