I have been so worried about his leaving and then his closly pending deployment date that I didn't think about ME independently. In addition, I don't want to "tick" him off by not doing anything. He sees MY non-action as an attempt to prevent him from doing what HE wants. However, I did see a L twice for consultation. I have a pretty good idea about my rights and have read up on the state requirements for a D.
As I have gone dark, I was a little panic'd this morning before leaving for work because I hadn't spoken with him, but stood my ground. It is probably best because he would have been ANNOYED.
At least I got some sleep last night. It was the first time in about a week.
I guess, I need to learn not to be so concerned about what is going to happen with my H. The whole idea of possibly starting over is just overwhelming. I have a good job and I can take care of myself financially, I just pray that my H wakes up because I truly care for and luv him.
Not sure how all of this will end, but one step at a time.
I have read some of the MLC resources. My H definitely fits the mold of an MLCer. I wish he could see how his rash (although he would disagree) decision is affecting he and I both.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
