I know. I just couldn't believe I was actually thinking that!

It is amazing how we all had this plans, and in one moment everything changed. The SG and I used to say when we retired, we were going to buy an RV and just travel. We would keep the house as a kind of homestead, and just have one cell phone that never got turned on. We were just going to drive all across the country, as far as we could go.

And then I think back, and wonder how much of it really was a lie.

But I don't lament a lot, I think maybe a little more this week because I am on edge about whether he will actually follow through or whether he will come up with another excuse on why he couldn't make it. Remember, the boss said it "should" not be a problem.

And here is another question...I have my profile up on a few dating sites. Most of you know what I look like. DO I LOOK LIKE I WANT TO DATE A SIXTY YEAR OLD MAN??? ARRRRRRGGGGGHHHH...

I almost feel violated everytime I get one of them winking at me!!! LMAO!!!

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..