feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

ST - Yes I have focused on me and my future. I have to!

I know it sounds like a rant - maybe it was - and it sounds like I want him around but it's best he's gone more right now.

I've had a bad couple days but I'm better. Hey..I haven't looked at our cell phone bill or our american express account to see how much he's spending - now I'd consider that Not focusing on him don't ya think?