Seeing these things in me really help me to understand the work that i need to do. How does is affect me - I guess the only thing that I can say is a "realization" of what I need to work on is in a way a good feeling.
Yes I can see how I got lost in my M. I can see it very clearly now. The challenge for me will be how to fix it..or if will deal with it.
In terms of coulda/shoulda/woulda - I am working on doing some of these things. The first being the best dad that I can be. The other stuff will take time. Some will require resources ($$) and some additional soul searching.
Yes now is my time...now is my time.
Thank you for your kind words Mach. Thank you. I am sure that other on this board are going thru pain and suffering but as someone once said to me..err..wrote to me It is from this pain that will emerge a new man. A new person.
For others that may be reading my thread...look hard at yourself..search deep...you will find what you need to work on. But you have to be willing to really be honest with yourself. Our S know us like no one else - they can really see if the change is for you. This may not change your outcome but it will change you. Know that you will be stronger!
I look forward to additional feedback.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
It is from this pain that will emerge a new man. A new person. 