My W is gone to OM's country for two weeks, and it couldn't have come at a better time. I'm making plans to take the kids down south for spring break with a couple other families. I'm motivated to pursue this music thing a little bit, just for fun. I'm doing well at work. I don't know what will happen with this woman I met, but it's awesome just to be back in the game. I don't obsess about my sitch all the time any more, in fact hardly at all. I think I've finally made it out of the woods.
To any newcomers out there who can't see any light at the end of their tunnel, hang in there. GAL the best you can, and try not to dwell on everything bad going on. You will feel better. It's taken me over a year, but I've finally made it through. I can honestly say I see my life being happy without my W. In fact, even if she did at some point indicate a desire to reconcile, I wouldn't be very interested. She'd have to pursue and convince me over a long period of time to even have a chance.
I think I prolonged getting here by continuing to pursue my W over the last year. I did ok not openly doing things to pursue her, but in my head, all I wanted was to desperately have my W back. Key word there is desperate, and it kept me from accepting the reality of my life. I see so many possibilities now and the fact that I don't have to deal with my W is lifting a huge weight off me.
She continues to intrude though. Yesterday in the mail each of the kids got a customized audio valentine. She put her voice on them, saying how much she loves each of the kids, and they were walking all around the house, playing them over and over. So even though she's thousands of miles away, I'm forced to hear her voice in my home. I know my kids love her dearly, so I don't blame them for that, but does she really not consider it intrusive to place her recorded voice into my home while she's gone on her trip? Or as Puppy says, she's doing it for the same reason a dog licks his ****s.
