I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Hi Aver,
Thanks for stopping in!


OK... SO dinner and dancing went well. Nice guy - not sure there is anything there to build on. Dancing was REALLY fun so the night wasn't a total loss. Its was VERY weird - but NOT as bad as I thought it would be. WHEW... that hurdle crossed! It was really nice to be noticed and cared about in general - haven't had that kind of attention in a long time!! Got a few more texts and a dinner invite from a guy I met online. Might go out with him this weekend! Things are looking up in general

H has been bugging me for two days with stupid questions and trying to get me to respond to him. I've ignored everything - he even sent a text asking me to check my email and get back to him. His emails didn't have anything in them to get back to him about. Last night while I was out - he doesn't know what I was doing - he texted me "sorry to bother you... is there still a pair of crutches in the garage?".. didn't see it till this am - so texted back yes... left them outside for you. Turns out he badly sprained his ankle while playing basketball. I didn't say anything other than left them outside on the step for you to pickup. I almost ignored him totally - but I have no need for them and he does this regularly so if he takes them they are no longer taking up space in my house.


Going dark is clearly harder on him than it is on me - I actually do BETTER! On week exactly and he's sending me stupid emails.

Spy talked to him last night at basketball and specifically asked why he refuses to honor my request for phone calls instead of texts/emails. Accused H of being blatantly disrespectful to my wishes or scared to talk to me person to person. H swore it wasn't either of those things but wouldn't elaborate as to why... coward. Not man enough to have a conversation...

Funny thing.. I really wanted to feel bad for him hurting himself, but I don't. I feel nothing anymore towards him - now that I've worked out the roots of the hate feelings - I just want to be as far away as possible.... still feels weird.

Well anyway - bigger and better things!!! I'm feeling pretty good about everything as it stands right now. Each day gets to be a different level of hard - can't wait for the easier portion of the evening!!!

T