I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

[crushed_v95]

She is unwilling to forgive me though. I would love to be able to forgive her and throughout the day today I've been searching inside myself to see if I can. My own convictions make this tough because of the lies, betrayal, and infidelity on her part. Our road to hell has two lanes.

And it's paved with good intentions too.

She feels like she has found someone else that can make her happy and she has made it clear to me that she doesn't plan to give me a chance or that this will change. It is tough for me to accept this, but I feel like I don't have a choice.

Here's the thing... My own wife has said these same things for a month. She phoned last night and gave me a double helping of her usual bonoboesque zoo cage rattling about how our fifteen years together is hell, about how I force her to verbally abuse the kids because of my bad example (I taught them to be lazy, you know), about how she's the innocent victim, etc. etc.

She seems to *say* a lot. When it comes time to actually *do* something, like, for example, file for divorce, we're waiting for ever.

Sit tight chief. Work on yourself. Pull up the dignity you dropped the last time you begged and cried in front of her. Make her follow through with the idle threats. Encourage her to leave you for the other guy. Within a week he'll stink up their love nest with a fart, pick his nose at the breakfast table and spit on the sidewalk. The thrill will be gone. In the mean time she'll begin getting nervous about leaving the devil she knows.

That's the theory in this divorce busting program, isn't it? Believe half of what they do, and nothing of what they say.