It's funny, during the day I hardly think about this anymore. When I do, I am so glad this chapter of my life is over.

At night, before I go to bed, though, its a different story. I suppose that will fade in time, but I really have to consciously make myself not dream of the day when the SG would come to his senses.

And then, I think, it would be easier if he was dead. Morbid, I know. Does anyone else ever think that?

Dear God, let this be over with Friday. If he comes up with another excuse, I think I will scream.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..