First meeting w/ WAW, I'm shaky need encouragement

[SweetCyborg]

Again, always grateful for 'reminders' and advice. It breaks my heart to see/hear her in pain, but I will keep going back to the 'list' and be strong.

She did tell a mutual friend that she felt that I was taking care of myself more and must not have respected her enough to do it while we were togther(to which I didn't respond when said friend mentioned it), so she has noticed s few small changes. I wonder why I didn't take better care of myself (eating lousy, not working out as much) when she was here? I know now she would have respected me more. Oh well.

NYC plans are still in play, I just don't want to do it too soon b/c I have 8 years of living here to wrap up pack, sort, donate etc. if we are truly going the route of the Big D