I wasn't sure weather to post this next thing, but I think it's better just to get it out, since it's weighing heavy on my mind tonight.
One of my close childhood friends, and my olders sisters BIL, committed suicide this past Sunday. I don't know many of the details. He had a lot of problems as an adult, including losing his job, and his house. It looks like his wife may have left him, and that was the final straw for him. He has a son about the age of my S13, who was there in the house with him.
I had not been in tough with him since we were teenagers. I'm going to the funeral on Friday. Our two families have been close over the years.
So, as I ponder my current sitch, I can't help but worry about my W's state of mind. I'm not trying to be dramatic, I just still have some guilt to deal with over not seeing her increased drinking over the past few years. She did try suicide a couple of years ago, which I though we had handled well. She returned to a psychiatrist for a while, and appeared to get better. This will be the longest she has gone without meds, so it is uncharted territory for me, plus I have almost NC with her.
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