how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

H texted again first thing this morning to wish me luck with my work events...so that felt good and got my day off to a decent start. it IS nice that he's thinking of me, talia. we may get together on thursday, but nothing solid. either way i have lots of plans for the weekend and leave for my service trip a week from saturday.

it's strange the cycle of emotions that you go through in dealing with all of this. sometimes i am so lonely and sometimes i feel totally ok with living alone and actually enjoy having my own space. sometimes i think i can keep up my hope for months and months and fight to save my M. sometimes i think why on earth should i even bother when this is the 3rd time he's left? i know everyone on this site goes through these emotions and it is helpful just to be able to share them with others who know exactly how i feel.

H has another appointment with his IC tomorrow. and he did text me last night to say he hoped i'd had a good day. i feel like i'm in a very weird situation where my H and i don't live together but we still talk every day, he still reaches out to me in some way every day. part of TLR technique is going dark, but how do i not respond when he's just texting or emailing to check in and wish me luck or offer support? should i not be responding at all or would that give him the wrong impression since he's clearly reaching out?