Hi LFA--

No, sorry, without a M, it means nada zip zero that he hasn't lived there. Just a business, ma'm, just the facts, just to be awarded to the best candidate--and morals don't count. Just like 2 brothers fighting over the family farm--give it to the one who can best run the farm. Don't matter if one of them is a jerk.

I will ask my L on Thursday if she would give the same advice to X--avoid court, find a $ amount that I can accept, avoid court. We both leaped to the conclusion that X would be awarded the house by the assessors based on the work and planning he did on the house (oh, and he has drawings and renderings and everything) and the damn woodshop. I am wracking my brains to see what a neutral party would see in awarding the house to me. Now, if it were 3 WOMEN assessors, I might have a chance...but a guy? is just going to say--hey, it's a woodshop, filled with his dad's tools and beautiful cabinets that X built to store them...X clearly has need and use of that space...damn the damn thing!

Town meeting: oh, he'll go, alright. Don't forget he is Mr. Big Fish in our tiny little pond. All sorts of people to meet and greet. Will he take HER? that's the 64K$ question. But I am sure he will.

I am TRYING to gear myself up to go. I HAVE to face this. It is just like a giant boogyman waiting to jump out and get me. I want to get it over with! I will email some friends tonight to see who will be my posse, and then hold my head as I weep and drink afterwards.

I scheduled a haircut for Friday so that will be presentable; I have good outfits that fit snug but don't look overdone; that and some anti-anxiety and I can do it.

Expect big postings afterwards. Pray for me from 7-9 on Monday March 1st. Geez, this is almost as big a deal as CB's wedding party! No, CB, I know yours is a bigger deal. Give me the date and time and I will meditate on you.