SweetCyborg,
Please log into:

http://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php

This site helps understand BPD, and it's root cause. Please log in, post your story, and you will be given reading material that will clear a lot of the confussion regarding BPD. This site is mainly for Borderline Personality Disorder. If you want to understand more about Bipolar, you can log into:

MDJunction.com

Pick Bipolar in the Family group so that you can post your story and get advice.