Aver, just getting a feeling about your sitch here. Do I remember correctly that your home is still filled with your H's belongings? If so, I think you need to move all of it to outbuildings or something. If you're like me, you're very sensitive to your surroundings. As my H gradually removes his belongings and furniture from our home, my feeling in my home is shifting. Psychologically, having his stuff gave me the feeling that "he could move back in any day" even though I knew that there were huge barriers to that. I know I've posted that stuff is just stuff, but I'm also a believer in feng shui and I recognize that stuff has huge symbolic value. I think you need to be in that home without any of your H's stuff and feel the vibe of that.
Ignore me if this doesn't resonate with you! Sometimes my ramblings are just projections...
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.