Seeking Answers, OPM, LFW, and Cat, and CW - Thank you.

I was feeling so down and I know I should be feeling better, it has been 2 months since he has been gone and I guess I had hoped that he would have "stuck to" his words in moving back in. But he says he can be in the same house with me. I KNOW I ALLOW myself to be hurt by him and HIS WORDS of (1) Divorce, (2) "You're not right for me, (3) "I made a mistake", (4) "You will be okay", and (5) "I have been wanting to do this for a while".

I guess I see any SA as the end because he can get the D while he is deployed.

I want my M and I do think it is too early to give up on that, but it is not too early to give up on feeling sad all of the time. I joing the alt (look for the picture of the blue butterfly). I am friends with ericmsant2/hope2luv.

While he called me this morning and I picked up, I am going dark as of this moment. I know I can do this, but I seem to keep doing the OPPOSITE of what I want to do.

Thank you SOOO very much for your encouragement. I tried to watch the video a few minutes ago. having a problem with the link. I will try at lunch today.

A friend called and asked me to have dinner this week. I will have to take him up on it.

OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty
Me 44
H 51
T 15 yrs
M 9+ yrs
No Kids
"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."