newmama,
Your right I need a plan. I don't think I'm ready to file for D myself yet. And I don't think I'll have too, everytime I've ever stood up for myself these last few months, H always moves more towards D. Since he hired a L back in Jan, I have been so afraid that now it's going to be so easy for him to just file. And that is why I have failed at the NC because of my fear. It does still scare me, and I still don't want a D. However, I realize that I can no longer be a doormat because of that fear. Being alone scares the hell out of me.


Together 16 years
Married 12 years
Me 36
H 34
D9 & S6
Separated 12/3/09
Confirmed A 1/25/10
Exposed A 1/26/10
H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10