newmama, Your right I need a plan. I don't think I'm ready to file for D myself yet. And I don't think I'll have too, everytime I've ever stood up for myself these last few months, H always moves more towards D. Since he hired a L back in Jan, I have been so afraid that now it's going to be so easy for him to just file. And that is why I have failed at the NC because of my fear. It does still scare me, and I still don't want a D. However, I realize that I can no longer be a doormat because of that fear. Being alone scares the hell out of me.
Together 16 years Married 12 years Me 36 H 34 D9 & S6 Separated 12/3/09 Confirmed A 1/25/10 Exposed A 1/26/10 H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10