Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Thanks addie, it A LOT to take on all at once, but when you've been down as far as you can go, the only way is up.

Just small updates otherwise:

(x)W and I are going to need some type of outside intervention here. We went out Saturday, both a bit peeved with some friends we had been waiting on way past our scheduled departure, so we got a really late start to the evening. We went out by ourselves to a karoake bar we used to go to way back when in our old neighborhood. We had a GREAT time. Then out of nowhere, we had yet another blowup when it was time to go home. Neither of us have any idea what triggered it or what it was even about. We made up for it when we got 'home' (the nice part about a good fight), but none the less, this seems to be a routine we're goign to have to work on. Now, there are certain excuses to the matter, (x)W had entere into "that time of the month" and has been very touch and go, and she normoally doesn't drink beer anumore, so, that may all play a factor. I don't know, something we're going to have to work on and get to the bottom of.

Other than that, the weekend was good, got sick as a dog Sunday and slept the entire day, litteraly. Yesterday we were supposed to get some financing issues straightened out on buying our house, but ran long at the health club, no dice. We did end up tag teaming dinner which has been a very nice thing. I don't know why, but we never meshed like this in the kitchen before. Yeah, before I did my thing and she did hers, but never in tandem. It's a nice feeling when everything gets done and as a team.

The shocker of the weekend, (x)FIL all the sudden as of yesterday has no problem with me staying there now while (x)W and I work out getting a residence straightened out and these issues with the boys persist. I chalk it up to mainly because things are getting done around the house for him, it's cleaner, and someone is keeping the boys in check. So, that is a major relief.

Uggh, but now this morning I get a call from the fraud protection line on my bank account, not looking forward to what this is all about.

But in all, yes, it's all in a positive direction, and what ever little negatives come along, only help make us stronger again.

OHHHHH, and I was dead on. (x)W cracked Saturday morning, which I also think added to the mystery tension of the night later on that she felt "unattractive" and "unloved" due to the lack of intimacy lately. I again stressed we have a lot going on and we're both at fault. I assured her she is the most attractive woman in my life and I do love her very much, that I was at a point where I could have chose to be with anyone I wanted, and I chose her. I also rolled the dice and called her out that it made me feel uneasy too in the fact that she's already demonstrated that if she feels 'unloved' by me, I fear she will just up and look for it elsewhere. So, sort of a reminder that I'm in the driver's seat now, ahe took it in stride and understood and assured me that this is it, no matter what comes up between us, this is the long haul.