I was the same way - tiptoed for nearly two years. Wow stupid girl Nikki. I felt the same way when friends would say that to me 'they don't understand, easy for them to say, etc' but the truth of the matter they are right. They are thinking clearly and logically. Often times we get too wrapped up (at least I did) in what my H was doing I forgot to worry about care for myself. My H was and is taking advantage of me and I won't tolerate that anymore. I too was soooo terrified of the D but now it's a certainty. There is no way I can go back after all the lies and betrayal. The past week or so I've been working on my thoughts and dealing with them.....accepting that the divorce is happening and I don't have to be so scared of it. It's a chance at a new peaceful life and although I may be alone at least I won't be anyone's doormat.
I think whatever it is you decide I'd hold to it and stay strong. As long as he's still talking to the OW there is no point in discussing anything in my opinion.
