DU- I am so feeling what you are going through! Do your research hun! I kept blaming myself and felt like a total failure and I still have moments where I just sit down and cry. But, those moments are not as many as they were. My L told me that it would be easier if my H had died (not that she was condoning anything...lol) but that emotionally it would be easier to accept. It is harder to accept that they are choosing to leave us/family. I think you are by yourself too much. Keep busy, go out with friends...have fun! It really will help!

Watch the video-thanks for posting OP!

M48 H53
M16 T18
S16 D13
SS30
H drops bomb PA/8-30-09
H leaves 12-30-09
D filed by H 2-10
H asks to come home 4-11
Piecing