Back here, for the second time... #69

[AliSuddenly]

Hey K.. you say he doesnt sound depressed, maybe he isnt. Or, maybe its easier to be happy and upbeat and enjoy a new and exciting setting, with no reminders of what an *rsehole you are and general failure as a H/father. Dont be too quick to judge. BF went on 5 holidays in 2008 and according to his friends, seemed happy and fine. The reality was (who he told noone).. he hated himself and was almost suicidal. Not saying tahts your H's reality, but.. appearances ARE deceptive.

I still think you need to look at and address your communication issues with him.. Michelle is right, how is H supposed to know you actually want to be made a fuss of, around or on your birthday if you have always 'gone along' with the unwritten rule that anniversarys/dates are not made much of? But secretly you are annoyed/angry or just feel let down..

I was once told very starkly by an astrologer, that as a Pisces with Mercury in Pisces too, I can often speak "in forked tongues" meaning I dont always say what I mean, or mean what I say, or that people get confused by what I say.. this has been demonstrated to me alot over the years!! Becasue I am aware of it (and I took it on the chin what he said to me)... I try to be straight and honest with bf. If something upsets/worries me or makes me happy, I tell him pretty much in real time, or the best next thing (like wait until we are alone, or he has time to listen).

Do you think you could do a bit of practising in this area? And I dont mean email him (that never works!) but actually talk to him in the moment, rather than brush things under the carpet or let him off the hook...