I know that all seems hopeless and horrible right now. You have to try to take a deep breath and step back from the venom that is being put out by your H. I know that he seems rationale and clear headed bit that is all the DEPRESSION that is speaking for him right now.
How is the reading of the resources going?
MWD has a video on MLC. If you go to the top of the page it says Micheles blog. You can watch the video there. I know that it helped me. I thought Michele had been transported into my house and was talking straight to me.
You know how I feel about you going dark. DO IT!!!
Then we have to work on you GAL. You have to do some fun stuff just for you. Take a bubble bath. Go to the movies. Tell me something that you like that is fun.
Your focus has to be elsewhere.
If you need to vent you can come here and we will listen.
Are you on the alt? Make that your first GAL activity. Become a fan of Divorce Busting(this web site) Tell me when you have done that and we will find you and become your friend.