Starting over again

[lostnotgone]

As much as this hurts and as much as I know I have to detached I have to be there for the test. Restless night of sleeping. I did call H last night and see how he was doing. I also asked if he was ok with me coming for the test - he said absolutly.

I know I have to not expect anything - I am just hoping that this is a wake up call for him. Not sure when that wake call up will happen. He has to know deep down that the person he is today is not really him. That is what keeps me going some days is knowing deep down somewhere the H I married is still there.