Thank you Gardener and Number 8 for your fast replies.
After I did my post, I made myself leave the computer and do other things...wasn't quite sure how this worked...decided to check before I went to bed.
I have been seeing a counselor, but, do not see her again till the 18th of March...she is on vacation. My sister has been a 'god send'. I talk to her everyday, sometimes 10 times a day!! She encouraged me to do this. She will still be there to listen to my love/hate ramblings without judging me, but, I feel the people here have a better insight as to what I need to do and how to do it.
Funny thing how the mind/heart works...I know what I should do, but knowing and doing are two different things!
Thanks...Pam
M55 H55 my D31 H D30 1st met her when she was 25 M 22yrs...2nd for me, 1st for H OW 2005 mother of H daughter, came back to introduce D 1bomb 6/05 2bomb 7/08 3bomb 2/10 moved up north