I was just thinking about how he constantly wants me to do what he wants and when I question why (as he has done with me in the past), he begins to spew out that I "don't want to have an adult conversation". Now, he says this when yelling.
I believe my H is having a PA (use to think it was EA) even though he continues to deny it. My C, while she is right that she does not know if he is having an affair, asked to to think about whether or not my H could possibly feel guilty about having left in the first place?
Since HE choose to leave, he may be feeling guilty and wants to RID HIMSELF from feeling that way, so he does so by deflecting his guilt onto me. And I have been feeding the deflection! Giving him the ammunition he needs to justify his actions.
Not sure what going Dark will do, but I have never done this so I need to try.
I have decided to leave my family out of it. They say I have false hope and they will not support me by feeding into that. I am committed, but this is really difficult as I am having a hard time thinking about my H being physical with anyone other than me. Goodness!
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
