"And it still pisses me off that I have to be in counseling and on meds thanks to my ex's crap "
"It's rediculous...that one person can decide the fate of three."
It is ridiculous isn't it? It's even more ridiculous that you keep blaming her for how you're still feeling. You allow her to get to you and you still are as seen through your revenge fantasies. Like I said. I get it. We all do.
But do what YOU can control to get your life straight. All of the stuff you've said you were doing is just in response to what she does. What have you been doing for yourself? And I'm also not talking about the dating thing. You went out on a date cuz you were lonely, felt rejected, wanted to feel loved, etc. I get it. But have you addressed these issues with your C? Like your thoughts of getting back at her.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
