DG, It is very normal to feel abandoned, hurt, sad, disappointed, ugly, etc. We feel like yesterday's trash or a second glass citizen. We try to compare ourselves to the person our spouse is in love w/these days.
Paul described his feelings quite well in his posting. You will work on these feelings as you get stronger and time has provided some much needed healing for you. In time, you will come to realize the God has a plan for each of us and we do not know what it is and there is a very good reason why our spouses are walking the path to OZ.
You are now on your own journey. This journey will help you to rediscover the person you were long ago. You will discover so many long forgotten things that you use to love to do. In time, you will smile again and the wound will not be so raw for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
