MF, I do walk in the snow. Well, I used to anyway. Last winter I hardly missed a single day, was religious with my four miles. I've been a slacker since the new year and am just now getting back into exercise. I'm doing a Pure Barre class every day and it's plenty hard! My lack of running in the snow is due to my klutziness. I'm certain I would have a bad slip and fall and end up not being able to get back to the house. Although I suppose if I put the yaktrax on my running shoes I might be ok.
BA, I don't have the $$$ for a treadmill because I don't work. I'm trying to cut down on expenses as it is to save up for a potential move. Since BF doesn't spend money on personal grooming (I cut his hair) he has enough for the treadmill. Plus he's the one who brought it up!
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g
Don't forget, I want before and after pics of the house.
You guys and your running. I would start the couch potato to 5K program if I didn't have 5" of fresh snow on the ground. Keep asking BF when he's going to get that treadmill...
I run in the snow all the time. Its fantastic. The crisp sounds.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
MF, I have zero flexibility also. I'm working on it in class. You can do all the exercises with minimal flexibility, it's just the stretches I can't really do.
BA, I get an allowance every month. We both do. Out of that money I have to cover groceries but whatever is left over is my spending money. However I do have a savings account that I have depleted substantially over the past year (travel, classes, shopping). I'm really trying to get on a budget and get some more saved up now.
Sorry for the t/j Tal!
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g
Wow, it sounds like your IC is really great. I am so impressed with your work on recognizing, tolerating, going through your emotions. You had a depression backslide, you RECOGNIZED it, it didn't knock you completely over, and back you come. I think I know how great that is, because I have a BIG fear of falling into a "depressed" depression, as opposed to my hyperactive depression. Which is depressing, but at least I get things done! Like burning momentos in the woodstove, but whatever.
With a new wardrobe and a salsa class, too! whoo-hoo!
I'll read back to get the details on your house sitch--do I understand that you have to fight for it? Sounds like you did so much work on it during this time--is your H fighting you for it?
Thanks for checking in on me--I will keep poking in on you!
OK... SO dinner and dancing went well. Nice guy - not sure there is anything there to build on. Dancing was REALLY fun so the night wasn't a total loss. Its was VERY weird - but NOT as bad as I thought it would be. WHEW... that hurdle crossed! It was really nice to be noticed and cared about in general - haven't had that kind of attention in a long time!! Got a few more texts and a dinner invite from a guy I met online. Might go out with him this weekend! Things are looking up in general
H has been bugging me for two days with stupid questions and trying to get me to respond to him. I've ignored everything - he even sent a text asking me to check my email and get back to him. His emails didn't have anything in them to get back to him about. Last night while I was out - he doesn't know what I was doing - he texted me "sorry to bother you... is there still a pair of crutches in the garage?".. didn't see it till this am - so texted back yes... left them outside for you. Turns out he badly sprained his ankle while playing basketball. I didn't say anything other than left them outside on the step for you to pickup. I almost ignored him totally - but I have no need for them and he does this regularly so if he takes them they are no longer taking up space in my house.
Going dark is clearly harder on him than it is on me - I actually do BETTER! On week exactly and he's sending me stupid emails.
Spy talked to him last night at basketball and specifically asked why he refuses to honor my request for phone calls instead of texts/emails. Accused H of being blatantly disrespectful to my wishes or scared to talk to me person to person. H swore it wasn't either of those things but wouldn't elaborate as to why... coward. Not man enough to have a conversation...
Funny thing.. I really wanted to feel bad for him hurting himself, but I don't. I feel nothing anymore towards him - now that I've worked out the roots of the hate feelings - I just want to be as far away as possible.... still feels weird.
Well anyway - bigger and better things!!! I'm feeling pretty good about everything as it stands right now. Each day gets to be a different level of hard - can't wait for the easier portion of the evening!!!
T
ME28,WAH30, M 5YRS, T 7YRS ,OW/ILYBNILY/SEP 9/09 Served with D papers 6/6/10 Current
Question: why do you want H to call rather than email? Just wondering. I much preferred email so I could respond on my timetable and be certain that I would respond appropriately.
Originally Posted By: talia
I really wanted to feel bad for him hurting himself, but I don't. I feel nothing anymore towards him - now that I've worked out the roots of the hate feelings - I just want to be as far away as possible....
Does it feel better to get off the emotional roller coaster?
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g
