I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Blown Away,
You are right - it is very public! But I suppose its better to be honest with myself and everyone than to hide behind denial of the situation. I'm getting better about it as the days go... the grieving process can be tough sometimes.

I had a fabulous weekend. Its amazing how busy things can get. I met someone this weekend - match.com - and he seems very nice. Maybe we will meet up for dinner soon. I have dinner/dancing tomorrow so that will be fun! I hosted family yesterday and had more people in my house last night than I've had in the last year combined! Celebrated niece and cousin's birthdays and the kids demolished my house. There was blue/pink frosting everywhere! The kids really do a great job of reminding us that life should be lighter than we make it.
Didn't think about H except for one little moment - reminded me of bday party for his niece a little while back. Mostly sad about missing those kids - not H. UGH - its sad to lose the entire family that comes with the marriage. Its sad that I won't be able to keep those relationships - H has made it clear to family that they will be considered dis-loyal if we keep in contact. Oh - their choice I guess. Moved on from the moment pretty quickly so that was good.


Purged the old furniture that H picked out with new ones that I like - living room officially looks nothing like it did before - transformation complete! It looks awesome - much more contemporary. I can't wait to finish the final touches of the other rooms and have the entire house feel that way!

I'm finally settling into this new phase - its been a tough transition. I've had NC with H since the "email" last Sun. Its been very good for me mentally. The transitions aren't necessarily easier than before, but they happen faster and with less overall fallout than before. I'm dealing better and better each time something changes!

Well - back to work. Tonight I have belly-dancing class and a running workout that is my first "step" in getting ready for the 12K! Big things are happening!

T