Struggling with Hope

[ericmsant2]

Thanks for your feedback Cat. This bonus thing is going to be a very big deal in the house. She knows it is comming and want to clear up as much debt as possible. She is not concerned about my needs at all, which I understand. The question that I will need to answer is how far do I want to go with this. She and I both know that historically I have been pretty damn selfish. Paying off the debt show that I am not but at the same time exposes me. In short, the question for me is am I in this for the long haul or not. I cannot continue to play both sides of the fence.