thanks folks. It's going dwonhill again. I'm going to accept this is over.
H gets up this morning, all is going well, he takes one look at my legal documents and starts yelling at me why can't I do it right and why did I take so long and if I can't do things right, I'm paying his attourney fee to fix it. All rational arguments, but he was yelling in a totally condescending way. I was sleep deprived again. COuldn't sleep last night due to these talks last night where I feel blamed. I made the mistake of defending myself. I said I did it exactly how he told me to and he screams this is not his responsibility. I throw the pen down on the table and walk off.
Now this is justifed as I'm losing it (the pen). I got so tired of working so hard to be healthy, calm, etc, and he continues to yell and put me down in front of S. He refuses to hear it. I'm not going to be blamed anymore for not being perfect enough to be safe when he is acting so hurtful and I can't feel safe.
