Had a backslide of sorts over the weekend, trying to assess any damage today. I may have to wait until tomorrow night to see. I called her out on seeing the first OM on Friday night and that sparked a 40 minute R conversation which was civil. Then last night S9 was crying after she left and had him call her to ask her questions I could not answer, then I spent another 30-40 minutes on the phone nailing her down on what she wants, meaning D. That was a mistake, but she still can't say "I want a divorce" she does not want to be the bad guy.

I am doing fine, I think I need to give her more time and space. I pushed and now I need to pull back. It is not as gut wrenching today as it might have been a week ago.


Formerly "missherlove"

Me49 XW49
M17 T19
S16 D20

Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.

~Jim Morrison