She must be seeing a lawyer...what now?

[Awoken]

Well, I made it through the weekend.

W spent Saturday away from home, and spent the night out somewhere else. S13 had a band clinic all day Saturday, and a concert today.
W and I had already agreed that I would pick him up saturday, and take him to and from the concert today.

D17 and I both attended the concert. W showed up too, coming from who knows where. D17 and I were dressed casually but nice for the concert. W showed up in workout clothes. I know everyone says this about their WAS, but she did not look good: thin, gaunt, and weathered. She sat with us, D17 in the middle.
We didn't speak a word. It must be difficult for D17. She spent time talking to both of us, but held my hand. I thought this must be uncomfortable for W too.

There was no cell reception in the auditorium, and W left several times to use her phone. duh. I suppose that's better than having her do it right next to us. Of course, I'm assuming a lot here. She could just be texting with her pro-divorce friends. When the concert was done, W bolted for the door with only a muttered "goodbye" to the two of us.

I'm disgusted and tired. I know I've only been at this for four months, and many of you have been here so much longer. I'm worried that my detachment is taking me to a place with busting this divorce matters nothing to me. My urge right now is to call my lawyer first thing in the morning and find out what we can do to get the process moving. I know she has not heard back from my w's lawyer.

I still believe in marriage; I still don't think divorce is the way the handle problems in a marriage. Pushing the divorce now, could be what I need to do to show W what she stands to lose. But on the other hand, maybe I need to draw the divorce process out as long as possible?

I have to consider the continued risk of her drinking and being of meds, but so far it does not appear to be getting worse, and maybe it's improved a little.

This feels like a crossroad decision: push the divorce or try to wait it out.
Friends, what are your thoughts?
I'm hoping a few more of you veterans will chime in this time.