I've read up a little on your sitch and see we have a bit in common. I admire you for what you've done and at least it lets me know that if I do decide to 'try' that I'm not the only one. Thanks so much for sharing!
Last night was my parents 40th anniversary party. As I'm sitting there visiting with family/friends (and after I was home) my mind wanders to thinking I CAN at least try. After all I want to be able to experience something like this in the future and I want my children to be able to actually go to something like that with/for their parents. I guess that was a 'trigger' for me that tells me I'm still not 100% detatched. I also got very sick and tired of people asking me 'how are you doing?' with that 'I'm sorry' look on their face. They mean well, they care about me and my girls...but still!
My youngest has her 2nd birthday tomorrow! Tonight we had a party for her at my in laws. I was pleasant with the W. The in laws are still in my corner and I still get along wonderfully with them, the OM is not welcome there. As we are leaving to come home, my oldest (almost 6) starts crying because we are leaving mommy. Another 'trigger' for me.
My thoughts as I type this are to lay down some extremely strict boundaries, issue no promises, and see what happens. Tomorrow may bring a change of heart, but as of right now that is where I am.
Heck if the US could beat the Russians in 1980 and then beat the Canadiens on their home ice like they did tonight...anything is possible right?? Sorry...my weak attempt at humor on a very non-humorous night at my house.
