I feel like I am wrong to want to see if my M can work. I feel like my family will be disappointed if I try to keep fait
The best thing is to leave your family out of the discussion. They are going to be one sided. They see you in pain and want to give you the easiest way out of the pain. If that is what you truly want then listen to them but IMHO you shouldn't listen to them. They are not going to understand MLC.
Only you can decide in the end. It is your marriage. There are no guarantees. My ? is this if you did concede to D what would you do? What would your life look like.
Decide that and then start working towards that life while you are still M. You can always get the D anytime you want it.
