I am reluctant to intitate with h out of fear of rejection as I had been rejected many many times in the past (before ow etc) H will initiate maybe once a week but more likely twice a month. I am not over weight and neither is h, infact we are both pretty damn good looking if ya asked me.
reaching a point where I almost don't want h to intitate as then it becomes oh sure why now?? then I can't enjoy it and am left to wonder why so that I may find some pattern and recreate...no pattern exhists.
