Don't feel the need to rush what is taking place inside of you. Whatever reconciling is taking place inside of your should not be rushed.
I only say this because we often allow the physical changes outside to force us to replace things. You've already been in that direction and you recognized that it wasn't the right place for you.
I say this because it sounds to me like this processing stuff you are doing is good stuff. Acceptance...without the anger or frustration. Good stuff indeed. It's nice to be able to claim the good and own it, while still accepting the reality of where things might be right now.
Keep your emotions your own for awhile. Find out what a life truly separate from her is like. Explore it, find the good and bad of it, most of all embrace all of it for all that it has for you as potential to continue becoming the man you are becoming.
The future is a funny thing sometimes.
The greatest act of love is sometimes allowing the one that means the most to us to have the opportunity to find what's missing.
Could turn out that it was us all the time.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
