That makes sense. But I do have some uneasiness about it. Let me explain...

It makes me sad , that I can't do anything to lighten HIS load. Even when he is sick he doesn't allow me to take care of him, when in this situation, most men are total babies (I know, I have a Dad and a Brother just like that )he is not. All my offers to prepare nice food, or something to drink, to back rubs, to ANYTHING gets turned down. He wants to be left alone, like on any other situation really.

It goes deeper than my hurt feelings, but this horrible nagging thought that he can get what I give him , which is nothing, anywhere. You know what I mean? I guess I am scare to lose my husband.

I know I am not making much sense now, but is it so bad to want my Husband to actually need me a bit, just a bit?