Looking for my new normal

[Gardener]

Bunny,
I heartily agree with Kimmie's suggestion and your response.

Thanks, I feel better knowing it's not just me.

Maybe you should give yourself a break and become comfortable just being on your own for awhile.

And this is the smart thing to do- I still have a lot of figuring out to do about myself. Thanks for the reminder, Kimmie.

I'd go so far as to say take down your profile and don't bother with any of those sites.

Become comfortable with being alone without feeling lonely.
Be alone.
Be.
You will become complete being you, just you alone, with time and healing.
Because you're enough.

When you don't need another person or R to feel complete and whole, you will be complete and whole.
Then you'll be open to the possibility - the option - of being in one again. One that proves itself to be right and nurturing and intimate on every level.

Design and live your own life and see who shows up. With no expectations of who or when or even if.

At least this is what Gardener tries to remember to do and say to himself every day.