Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

ok update...
WH picked up S on Friday night. I was not feeling that great. He took his time leaving, I think he thinks it will help me if I get to hang out with him a long time before he takes him. IT DOESN'T!

So I kept saying 'okay, bye! see you tomorrow cuddlebug! Ok see you later! Bye!'

and I think WH noticed, haha! I don't care what he thought but he finally just took him and left. You see the sooner they go, the sooner my baby comes back. And it is also like ripping off a bandaid!

So I just stayed in, talked to my friends on the phone, drank too much wine. The next morning I did laundry, worked out, cleaned up. I decided to "plant" one of my new pairs of panties where WH would see them...so I dropped it on the floor in the hall, like it fell out of the basket!

And then I played my Super Mario Bros and left it on so WH would see it when he dropped off S.

Sure enough, when I came downstairs from my shower, I saw the underwear was not there anymore- he tossed them into the laundry room! So he did see them and was forced to think of me, haha!

Then I explained about the wii and was so glad that I took this long to tell him so that it didn't come across as me trying to get his attention. It was me sharing a new hobby that my girlfriend exposed me to! And truthfully, now that S will take longer naps, I have time to play it!

So then we rushed out the door to visit my mom. WH helped put S in the car. It was a really nice day! For some reason, these really nice days just make me want WH back even more.

My friend that I talked to on the phone on Fri night admitted she thought WH would have filed for D by now. She said she is now believing that he isn't so sure and there is hope for reconciliation!

And our tax return came in. So if money was the reason why he hasn't filed, we will see!

I plan to be busy today (no problem trying) and then on Wed when he spends the day here, I plan to be present mostly and maybe even suggest another outing together. Don't know yet.