How much do they hurt?

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Thanks OP. I plan on reading your entire sitch as I am always interested in sitchs similar to mine and try to learn from them.

Trapt and Snodd, I know what you are saying is true. But I sometimes feel like I will never be able to fill that void and my fear is that I will feel this way for the rest of my life.
I will be completely honest, the thought of this possibility scares me to death.

I see people that post here years after their divorce and they are still in pain. I do not want to be like that and like snodd mentioned, I want company on my way to where I need to be as in my mind this would speed the process up. I do honestly have a lot of love and affection and I can love another person. Even in the state I am in right now.

But right now I feel like my void is the Grand Canyon in the winter time.

I have been GALing and spending time with family etc but at the end of the day I still feel empty and very much alone and abandoned no matter what I do.