She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

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I really have nothing new to add. I was hoping to be going back from my deployment in three weeks, but it looks like I have two more months. I can't do anything but think about the sitch. I have a hard time focusing on my task at hand here. I've had bouts of depression, sadness, and pretty much everything but happiness. I just want to get home and start the process of her going to IC and me going to IC. I really need to see my daughters to help ease the pain.

I'm trying to vision my life without her just in case, and it's really hard to do. Being so far away and not seeing and living the sitch makes it very hard to seem like reality. It was hard to hear her talk about moving out, but she left the door cracked when she mentioned renting the place out later.

I just don't know what to think anymore. Her and my teenage daughter haven't been getting along, because my daughter is mad at her for wanting to do this. She hears my wife talk about divorce and me talking about working things out, and she says she's confused. I just tell my daughter that that's my intention, but it's going to take time. i asked her to please be patient and wait until I get home. She's grounded from the computer and her cell phone, so we're unable to communicate as freely as we used to.

i just feel bad about the entire situation and the fact that I'm not home to be there for my girls. I keep thinking about them staying with just me when I get back, and I look forward to the challenge. I also keep thinking about all the things I want to do with them that doesn't involve their mother. It will be strange to my wife seeing me do all that with just them. Hopefully positive to the girls that dad is strong, and we'll see what my W thinks.