dday, The more I think about it yea I know I have made mistakes, but I don't know if they were so bad to make her find OM.
I know through our relationship, I started out as being confident and strong. As I went through college and didn't get a job in the field I wanted I started to loose that confidence. I was always worried about money and how much we had to the point of not spending any money on myself because I felt guilty for doing so. I know that I started to smother her and I did that because I felt like I was losing her. She came to me 8 months ago and told me that she felt like she was falling out of love with me. I told her that I don't want to split up and that we should go to counciling. Well we never did and I am in the situation I am in now because of it. I don't want to dwell on the past, I want to look to the future but it is hard when it seems like she doesn't give a damn about me or about my kids(only when it suits her and she is in front of them). I want to say F it and just pull away but I still want my wife. I still want us to work this out but how can it happen when she has OM poisoning her mind against me.
Her family wont talk to me. And I don't really want to talk to them but it is funny because my entire family asks her if she is ok. Offers to help her and listen to her. Just sucks ya know.
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
