Hi Allen A, sorry for the delay in response. Work hours are out of control and coming down with a sore throat...Ugg!
To answer your question, I have been cheated on before and I felt horrible but eventually got over it enough to move on with my relationship. After carefully reading your response I can agree with you in that I hadn't really realized how much damage the affair TRULY caused because he never voiced it to me as he did during our conversation at Starbucks.
He referred back to the photo's that he saw of me and the OM and stated that it HURT him then and it STILL hurts him now. That registered with me. It sent shock waves thru my body. He went on to say that this was obviously NOT a one-night stand and kept referring back to one of the photo's and described it as being more than just a fling. That's when I knew that this is something that still haunts him and has haunted him since he found out about the A.
I am prepared to move and shared that with him. My lease will be up in mid May which is a good thing because it's not that far away.
I've had a chance to reflect on our time spent together and I feel like a deer caught in headlights but I do understand that I must keep fighting for my marriage. But you are RIGHT Allen A, I have a HUGE mountain to climb and feel like I need to re-read the books again.
I called him this evening just to check on him and see how his work week went. Conversation went good, I didn't drag it out...Made sure to listen to him and ask specific questions. Told him a little bit about my hectic week. Short and sweet. He told me that I sounded sick and should go to the doctor even thought I didn't want to. This is the second time I've been sick in two months and both times he's encouraged me to go. I'm on his medical insurance thank GOD because medical care can be really expensive without insurance. At least it appears that he still cares about my health.
As always thanks for your help and lending ear Allen A and everyone else!
