hi sometimes I really feel like I should do it but, everytime I make a tenative decision to do it something comes up to prevent it. Like my truck is broken right now and I need him to bring me places, important things I need to do like getting to the city for my clinicals for nursing school and stuff like that, he is always happy to do it and he is also going to fix the truck. not to mention that i have no court order for child support and cant do without it since i lost my last job. I went without it for months while he was off in happy land with the ow, she told him not to give us anything till i agreed to a divorce. Since he has started to come around he goes out of his way to help us (we have 5 kids). Sometime i think i'm just stuck and other times i really believe it's divine intervention. I also had drawn a line in the sand (with myself only), for christmas, but then before it came i had a dream that told me to move it to this other day which i am also keeping to myself. I don't know anyone here in kansas, the kids are always out and about, maybe i'm just lonley or have too much quiet time with my own thoughts. Thanks LT
