I have only been divorced two weeks and separated for 3 months. I would hate to feel the same way two years from now. That scares me. Why? Because I am still in love with my XW.
She knows this but keeps trying to convince me that I need to move on (hate that term!) and that she is never going to come back to me. She is trying to do me a favor and even went dark on me since I have a hard time doing it on my own. Im still having a hard time detaching.
She is right but its still hard to get past my emotions some days but getting better.
I only have one Son and he is grown and has his own life so I am basically alone now. I still talk to my XW on occasion and even see her once in a while and it still hurts like hell when I see her.
Thought about dating and honestly think I could pull it off and not do it for the wrong reasons but I am discovering that the dating pool water is a little cold when it comes to 47yr old ex married guys. Seems I am invisible. Perhaps there are too many 20yr old Viagra adicted Playas out there snatching up all the women my age? LOL, who the hell knows?
Not crazy about dating but what other option do I have? I dont want to spend what is left of my life alone and Im not getting any younger. I feel like my emotions are between a rock and a hard place. XW doesnt want me and dating is a double edged sword.
Anyway sorry for the hijack and rant. Ill follow this thread as it interests me. I just pray I do not post the same misery here two years from now. Wish me luck.
Me:48 W:55 M:22 T:23 Bomb:19Nov09 S:15Jan10 D:11Feb10 EA:Confirmed on 20Apr10 Fast track to her divorcing me
