Put off reading those letters until you feel stronger and have a plan for a place and way to vent afterwards. You need to keep chin up about job stuff or it will make him feel bad because he is trying and can't help it. I hope you don't lose your house, but as my H is squatting in ours and I've been somewhat pillar to post, I can tell you that you can get used to anything briefly. Not like it. But get used to it for awhile at least. Not to scare you. But sometimes the bottom is tolerable. And remember your H's dream for a new place without bad memories for you two? You could maybe consider your biggest fear a possible mixed blessing? A temporary downsize to take the wind out of the fear of it? I'm not sure, but I've tried to reframe my living situation as a temporary adventure. Maybe it's denial for now, but it helps me stay more positive. Good luck!
