I just posted a reply to you over in my thread, but I thought I would copy it here as well. It seems relevant to both discussions:
Originally Posted By: Awoken in his own thread
Today, while my daughter dazzled me with her thoughts about everything, and her openness to tell me her deepest thoughts, I thought briefly about you(GIMA) and your worries about time with your kids post D. You know we both share the same worries.
It occurred to me that this one lunch with my daughter, and our bonding over it, is something we will both never forget. Regardless of what happens in the future, D17 and I will have many more moments like this to treasure. Somehow, I a little less concerned about losing my day to day contact with D17 and S13.
Thanks Awoken. I dreaded the drive back home b/c she was here and I was excited about the drive back home b/c the kids are here. This dichotomy seems to be the existence many of us here live.
I have just about forgotten what a "normal" existence is anymore. Not losing it. Just feeling reflective right now.
About to take S10 to baseball practice - and that will be the highlight of my day so far.
And here is the head scratcher for the day - anyone feel free to chime in: W sent me an email to explain that the kids slept in my bed last night (they usually do when I'm not here), that she made the bed up and put things back like she found them to the best of her knowledge. But if things were out of place, this was why. WHY WOULD I CARE? WHY?
W then sent me an email to say she did not know what time I owuld be home or where the retreat was. I reminded her I emailed here a few weeks ago to tell her where the retreat was and how long I'd be gone. "Oh, I didn't remember that."
My puzzer is puzzed. Not wasting time on it. Just odd. Or, "normal" these days.
